hmm.. yes I have not been on here in a while...
my current obsession is: Moonlight. Fantastic show and I suggest you watch it.


Anyways, it's not like anyone really reads this.. so I guess I might as well admit I am a huge Doctor Who fan.. yes that I am. I also really love Moonlight. Time Lords.. and Vampires.. Hell yes.

I guess you could say my life is far from perfect. I still get Migraine Tension Headaches daily.. and they have pretty much taken over my life... With help from those old habits I have from depression.. I pretty much seem happy and amazingly do keep up with most of my school work.... but deep down I hate what I've done to myself. Secluded myself from most of my friends outside of school... even my writing suffers..
The sad thing is I've done this to myself...
I hate what I have become... although the real me, still shows through.
I smile and laugh, even when those headaches kill sometimes.. I guess the only reason why I write this is so I admit to myself. I hate what I've done to myself.. but at the same time.. it has let me know who I am.

I guess what I am trying to say is.. I wish I didn't do this to myself. It's an internal battle.. but it also effects others.. I believe what I need to do is stop it... although fixing things are going to be tremendously hard.